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10 February 2010 @ 10:56 pm
TCBU chapter 5  

Static In My Head

Nasty and I walked back to the bus from the diner in complete silence. It was obvious that a lot more happened at that diner, than just Ronnie feeling sick. But I chose not to bring it up and fortunately, Nasty didn’t either. So we just let it go and when we got back to the bus, I stomped my way back to my bunk, choosing to ignore everyone’s inquiring stares.

I must have fallen asleep, because I woke up hours later and wandered out in to the front of the bus. Everyone else was asleep except for one person, guess who. Ronnie sat on the couch with his laptop propped up on his knee. He glanced up at me and groaned before turning back to the bright screen of his computer.

I sighed and sat down beside him, leaving enough room between us so it wouldn’t be awkward. I took the remote and turned the TV on, absentmindedly flipping through the channels. I settle on some random show on MTV, because God knows there’s nothing but infomercials on at this ungodly hour. “I hate this show. It’s so stupid,” Ronnie says peering at the TV with a frown.

“Want me to change it?” I ask turning to him and trying to remain civil.
He shrugs, “I’m busy anyway.” He replies staring at his laptop.
“What are you doing anyway?” I ask leaning closer to sneak a peak at the screen.

He glares at me and quickly pulls away, shielding his laptop from my sight. “None of your business,” he states bitterly. I furrow my brow and turn away from him, averting my gaze back to the TV. We sit in silence for a moment; Ronnie reading something intently on his computer screen, and me wondering what could be so private on that screen.

I bet it’s porn. I laugh almost inaudibly and he stares at me sternly, “What the fuck are you laughing at?” I sink a little in my seat and my smile falters, “None of your business,” I spit back, mocking him. He narrows his chocolate eyes in frustration, but nevertheless turns back to the computer.

I tap my fingers against my thigh impatiently, still trying to catch a glimpse of the laptop’s screen, but to no avail. “Hey, what the fuck is that?” I scream abruptly pointing in a random direction. Ronnie quickly looks and I snatch his computer and run for the bathroom, locking myself in the tiny room.

I scan the webpage he has up and ignore his pounding on the door. What the fuck is Mibba.com? I stare at the screen slightly bemused until I spot my name.

Summary: Ronnie realizes he has a thing for his new guitar player. Jacky/Ronnie.

I read the summary over and over again, still finding that I can’t quite comprehend. I sigh and click the link to the story; Ronnie still banging on the door and pleading. The webpage changes and I read through the more detailed paragraph and then I click the link to the first chapter of the story.

I sit in the bathroom for almost two hours reading the entirety of this random fan fiction. And by the end of it, I’m not sure what to think. The story was about my relationship with Ronnie and how we fall in love, if that isn’t disturbing enough…we have sex in the story. I should’ve Xed out of the story then, but I was compelled to see what happened in the end.

The thought that Ronnie had been reading this hadn’t occurred to me until I was done reading and opened the bathroom door to find Ronnie slumped on the floor wearing a frown. I handed him back the laptop and cleared my throat, sensing the awkwardness between us.

He glances at the screen and his eyes instantly go wide when he realizes I know he’s been reading about he and I having sex. He opens his mouth presumably to spout some lame excuse, but I quickly interject, “Ronnie, I don’t really wanna know why you were reading that. I’m just gonna go to bed.” I state shaking my head and smiling uncertainly.

I turn away and start to walk back to my bunk, I stop when I feel Ronnie’s hand close around my arm. I look at him curiously and he pulls me closer. He stares at me fixedly and gently pushes me back against the wall, pressing his body up against mine. My breath catches in my chest and my eyes widen as he swallows hard and leans in.

Our lips connect sending a shiver down my spine. He slides the tip of his tongue along my bottom lip causing my heart to race and my knees to buckle. When we pull apart I feel my heart sink and I stare at him, not sure what to say. He bites his bottom lip and shakes his head, “Fuck dude, I’m so sorry.” He apologizes as realization hits him hard.

I’m not completely sure what he’s apologizing for because I wanted it. I should probably tell him this, but at this point my tongue is dead weight and I can’t form words correctly. I think he takes this as a bad thing because next thing I know, he’s mumbling something and walking off the bus.

I think about chasing after him and telling him it’s ok. But I’m tired, and I decide I need some rest so I crawl in to my bunk and stare at the ceiling absentmindedly until I fall asleep.

So I haven't updated this in like a million years. And I feel so terrible about it, so here you go.
Jacky's kind of a selfish douche, huh? I love it. x]

Place: Kitchen x]
Feeling: okayokay
Noise: Gimme Half - The Devil Wears Prada
winteralesha on February 11th, 2010 09:38 pm (UTC)
You're back! ^^

Haha, oh God, Ronnie. xD
It's so funny when the characters in fics read xrated ffs about themselves. xD

(p.s. lol, your disclaimer & my disclaimer = typical case of great minds think alike)
oxylove_xxoxylove_xx on February 12th, 2010 01:15 am (UTC)
I am back and it feels good x]
The idea for the mibba thing just popped in to my head while I was writing and I was like "ohh I gotta do it!" haha. I thought it would be a good way for Jacky to finally understand that Ronnie really liked him. =]
falseyoureyes on February 12th, 2010 01:55 am (UTC)
OMG YAY *dances*
I'm so happy this was updated. xD (And I hope your move was okay). And fuuuck I love this.

I hate Mibba but Ronnie reading stories on there would be hilariously adorkable. And it IS hilarious when characters in fics read fics about themselves.

Ronnie. Gah. Words can not express how ungodly fragile he actually seems in this. He needs a hug and a giant heart shaped box of chocolate.

And fuck ya. I love this. :D Was great. :)
oxylove_xxoxylove_xx on February 12th, 2010 03:04 am (UTC)
Re: OMG YAY *dances*
Thanks x] The move went awesome, I'm totally loving the new house. Feels like I belong here; feels like home.

Ronnie is fragile, poor guy. I actually post these chapters first on Mibba, so I was gonna actually cut that little bit out of it when I posted it here. But I forgot to; although it worked out okay. =]
youneverknew13 on February 18th, 2010 05:27 am (UTC)
Oh wow...
Wow, didn't see that coming
oxylove_xxoxylove_xx on February 18th, 2010 06:33 am (UTC)
Re: Oh wow...
I like to throw in twists. x]

More soon.
jazzykilluhjazzykilluh on February 19th, 2010 03:47 am (UTC)

Go after Ronnie and hit that! I know you wanna </3
oxylove_xxoxylove_xx on February 19th, 2010 12:09 pm (UTC)
I know I wanna lmfao. x]
gavininshowersgavininshowers on February 22nd, 2010 01:57 pm (UTC)
Honestly, i still don't have a clue what Mibba is XD

But this chapter was awesome...haha getting in some slash before getting ready for school x]
oxylove_xxoxylove_xx on February 22nd, 2010 10:36 pm (UTC)
Lmao. Mibba is just a creative writing site. And thanks =] I really need to get back to writing it. I've just been slacking lately. I've got two original slashes going at the moment as well. =/
love_is_dead483 on March 16th, 2010 08:18 pm (UTC)
New Reader<3

This is amazing so far, I really never thought of Ronnie getting with Jacky, but now it makes me do one of those cheesy ass smiles. :D

Update soon, yes? :3
oxylove_xxoxylove_xx on March 18th, 2010 03:57 pm (UTC)
Sweeet. I love new readers. <3 Thanks. =] I'll post some more right now. I never thought of Jacky and Ronnie as a good pairing, but they work well together.

Not to mention, I'm really over Max right now. Don't see myself writing Ronnie/Max ever again. =/